2 Corinthians 4:16
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
My family fasts from electronics on Sunday morning. Trust me, this is no small feet with a 7 1/2 year old who seems to have come out of the womb with a love for electronics. So you will often get my Sunday post, Saturday evenings or Sunday afternoons.
My family just returned from a property blessing. First one that we have ever been to. Our friends are purchasing 55 acres to turn into a working horse farm for those with both mental and physical handicaps. The whole ceremony was amazing, but I was especially struck by what the father, who was given the vision, shared about the former owners. Both previous owners had experienced deep loss and pain on the property. He didn’t want to just look to the future of the property, he wanted to understand its past and invite healing to the land and its owners.
Sometimes we cannot help the pain we inherit in the land sewn by our families. We are passed pain filled property and it may seem impossible for anything to grow. We have to acknowledge the pain and allow God to make the soil fertile for a new harvest.
At moments it is hard to see how God can bring anything fruitful out of my son’s suicide. But, many of the pages I turn make it clear that though I outwardly grieve, God is preparing the soil of my heart to plant new seeds. He cares about my pain and is blessing my life.