Welcome to Turning the Page on Suicide. Insomnia has made me feel close to losing my mind this week. Honestly, it is difficult to speak truth over negative and dark thoughts. I know what God is capable of when I am at my weakest yet living without restful sleep is impossible. I am tempted to despair.
God transforms the impossibilities in our lives. Scripture testifies to miraculous change in people with ingrained sin patterns, physical struggles without a cure, and mental illness, though some didn’t even know Jesus. Sometimes God heals in an instant, other times, like for me, it is a slow change.
The writers of the gospels wrestled with despair throughout the New Testament. Lives were transformed but all who dared share the gospel endured great hardships or loss of life. Their minds, bodies, and spirits were taxed to breaking. The disciples lived and continued in their weakness, because they kept the same habits, no matter what they encountered. “Now we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this surpassingly great power is from God and not from us. We are pressed on all sides, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed… So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you” (2 Corinthians 4:7-9,12 BSB).
Here is what we need to do:
- Acknowledge suffering.
- Repeat what we know to be true of God and our circumstances.
- Survey God’s mighty work in the life of Israel, the prophets, Jesus Christ, and our own.
- Observe that many are saved through suffering.
- Praise God in all things.
My insomnia is worth the chance to connect with you. Do not give up. God loves to work with what we deem impossible. Live as a mighty example, despair will not win, no matter what life throws at us.
I would love to pray for you. Your story is worth writing.
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