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My Suicide Story

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Dear Fellow Page Turner,

“Do we stop the story here, or turn the page?”  was the question I asked the packed church at my oldest son’s funeral on July 7th, 2014. The next morning I took in a deep breath and began writing Turn the Page, first on Facebook and now in this blog. My goal was simple: Grieve With Hope.

I want to keep writing my story because beauty continues to spring out of the ground of my son’s death. I refuse for the enemy to destroy another soul by giving in to despair. God still brings life out of death, just as he always has done!

Suicide is one of the harshest realities of our fallen state. I too struggled with depression and attempted to take my own life in my teens years, but God pulled me from the pit and taught me how to persevere.  I hoped for a different life for my son and my heart breaks that he struggled so deeply with despair.

Each of us has a story to write, and even as I struggle to write each page, each page is worth writing. I use poetry, photography, scripture, and experience to encourage many who also walk through depression and grief.

May my transparency be a witness of hope that strengthens you to turn your own pages. Every story is worth writing!

Love always,

Karisa

27 Comments

  1. Karisa you are a very strong woman. I love reading what you write it really inspires me keep up the good work, you are inspiring alot of people with your story. Love and miss you guys!!!

  2. You must be so strong! Finding strength in weak moments is blessing. There is never enough awareness on this subject. Thank you for helping another family.

  3. Karisa, everything happens for a reason. Your son’s death, so devastating and heartbreaking, there are no words fully adequate to comfort you. But know that he no longer despairs, and by Turning the Page, you give much hope to others.

    • Thank you Marie.

      • I’ve shed a tear for you today. Your story touched me so much.

  4. Also, Karisa, not to minimise your story in any way, comparing it to a post I had written recently about loss. But It jumped out at me that you said: “I want to keep writing my story because there has to be something beautiful that springs from my son’s death.” I echo this same thing in “Purple Tree”, a post I wrote on Sunday. It made me think how connected we all are in this universe, and how our lives touch on each other in such profound ways.

  5. Karissa, I am so sorry for your loss. My children’s father committed suicide 6 weeks ago. Thank you for sharing and giving hope. God bless and my prayers are with you and your family. Lisa

    • Lisa, I am so sorry for your loss and my prayers are with you and your family as well. Let me know if there is anything that I can lift up specifically.

  6. Karissa, it was so good talking to you today. And I found your blog! 🙂 I will be lifting you up in prayer. So glad that you’re branching out into Biblical Counseling, but as you said, take it slow. Our paths keep crossing – call me or come visit anytime! In Him – LouAnn

    • lol, I just got here to work on my evening post. Thank you so much!

  7. God bless you – I “met” you over to Wally’s page. I also tried to commit suicide when I was 25, and at 56 God still is not through with me. I am so so sorry about your dear son. God continue to love you through this.

    • Thank you so much. May we continue turning pages together.

  8. Wow. What amazing strength you have. My mum lost a son so I know what losing a son can do to a mother. You look after yourself and keep on with the great writing. Chris… X

  9. You are amazing for writing about this! You are leading others and showing them the way through your pain. Just beautiful!! God bless you and keep you! 🙂

  10. You have inspired me to continue on in my own journey as a quadriplegic. Three years ago I fainted in my kitchen and broke my neck. Obviously, my life is never been the same. I am learning so much about friendships, my value as a “still” person, and about God’s love for me.

    • Terri, blessings upon you! I love your word “still” to describe your journey. Glad that we can walk this path as sisters together! I look forward to talking to you further.

      Be sure and add your story to the community page. 🙂

  11. This is a powerful blog. You have incredible strength and courage. Thank you for sharing your story with us. 🙂

  12. Karissa- thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing this. As I have a 4yr old and a 5 month old I can’t even begin to imagine what you’ve been through. I’m looking forward to following along 😃

    • Thank you so much for your kind words! I look forward turning the page, with you and hearing more of your journey.

    • Karisa Moore Karisa Moore

      Thank you Be a Voice. I checked out your blog. I like that you wrote out your prayers. I have been doing that a lot more lately. Really helps me to see both where I was and God’s provision.

  13. I just reread this again and it deeply touched and inspired me to the core. Thank you for sharing your heart and your story with us so that we can allow our own wounds to be healed by your precious and profound writings.

    • Karisa Moore Karisa Moore

      Thank you Terri. Courage and strength dear sister.

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