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Changing Lens of Depression

Change the Lens of Depression

Change my Lens of Depression

I need to change my lens of depression.

Depression is a poor lens
through which to filter existence.
Always bringing into focus
the wrong subject matter.
Macro sizing doubts and fears and blurring
hope and possibility.

God, you expand my black-and-white world,
revealing the vivid spectrum of colors.
Transforming possibility
through the lens of your love.

Depression is a poor lens
through which to filter relationships.
Always bringing into focus
the hidden thought behind motives.
Macro sizing negative opinions and
minimizing tangible truth.

God, you show me we are all sinners
desperately needing the development
of our negative image.

Depression is a poor lens
through which to zoom in on faults.
Constantly removing from focus
our value and expecting perfection. 
Macro sizing disappointment
and downsizing grace. 

God, you show me the ugliness of when I hurt others
and give me the opportunity for repentance
and retakes. 

You change the lens of depression
and help me to see the bigger picture of
your love for mankind.

 

For Further Reading

Uncrushed by Beth Marshall

Freedom Starts With Hope

Shared Grief

Shared Grief

Shared grief sometimes comes when you aren’t expecting it. I am passionate about poetry because it is a way of observing truth and looking at it from different angles. The psalms are some of the most used scriptures in the Bible. Why? Because we understand what it feels like to have our bones broken. Our hearts often cry out, “Where are you, God?” Poetry is a chance to be honest with our suffering, to speak truth over the pain, and to remember that God is not silent or distant.
Maxine and I met at a writer’s conference. We were strangers, yet grief bonded our hearts as we cried out to Jesus for the things we could not control or understand. You never know how your life will touch another. Share your story. Hope is needed, and your unique testimony may be just what someone else needs to keep turning their page through the darkness of deep sorrow.
“For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known” (1 Corinthians 13:12, ESV).
your grief, my grief
your tears, my dry eyes
death, near-death, despair
dirt crusted divine hands created
reached out to receive, retrieve His beloved
                                               — Maxine Composto  10/25/23
Bio: Maxine Composto holds a Master’s Degree in Human Relations. She is a Certified Bereavement
Specialist and a retired Executive Assistant. Retirement has given her the freedom to pursue her
lifelong love of learning and passion for writing. She won first place for Flash Fiction in Word
Weavers’ 2024 Tapestry Writing Contest. When she is not writing she is crocheting baby beanies
for a Pregnancy Center in Central Florida.
For more resources on shared grief:
Broken Butterflies is an opportunity
to cry out in your pain like the psalmist.
Sanctuary of Understanding

Sanctuary of Understanding

Sanctuary of Understanding

I need a sanctuary of understanding,
A place I can’t hide or engrave my name on a particular pew
Let me savor a sermon that causes the sin in me to wither and writhe until it has no place
in this holy temple of truth.
Let me feel the ground-shaking worship
with my arms raised in testimony to Your goodness
and my eyes looking outward rather than
leaning back on self-involved introspection.
May the fragrance of your love, hope, faithfulness, and forgiveness
fill the nostrils of all I encounter. Leave your mark on me so that everyone can tell
I’ve been with Jesus.

You are my sanctuary, O Lord.
The place of refuge, security, and hope.
Let me display the fullness of communion with a God who is never distant.

 

Further Reading:

Poetry Testifies to What I’ve Seen and Heard

Broken Butterflies: Emerging Through Grief by Karisa Moore

God's Formulas for Complicated Circumstances

God’s Formulas for Complicated Circumstances

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,

Hebrews 12:1, NIV

Turning My Page: God’s Formulas for Complicated Circumstances

Daniel tossed his paper in frustration, ” I just don’t get it! There are no math sample problems like this one, and I have no idea how to do it.”

“Want my help?” I smirked.

“This is way beyond you. There is no way you can help me,” He teased.

“Wanna bet?” 

Looking at Daniel’s math problem, I saw that he was right. I had no idea the formula’s meaning or purpose, but I knew he did, so I began asking questions.

“What is the order for solving the problem?”

“That’s the problem. Those rules don’t work on this one.”

“Really? What are you trying to solve for?”

He threw up his hands. “Pi. This isn’t helping me.”

I pressed in. “What is the first thing you must do to the equation?”

Reluctantly, Daniel looked at the problem again. “Oh, well, I can move the h over here, thus eliminating the h. Oh, that was the piece I was missing.”

Then, he rattled off the rest of the process and solved the equation, even plugging numbers into it and seeing that it worked.

I may not know how to do complex math problems, but I do know what gets him stuck because it is the same thing that frustrates me.

Steps.

The more complex the problem, the more steps there are, and sometimes, I need to narrow my vision and ask the question. What is the first step?

A runner told me, “Stop focusing on the finish line and start breaking the course into sections.” I have to make it to this point and then the next. The first time I tried it, I was surprised that I made it to the finish line at the fastest time and didn’t stop for a break. 

I tend to start the problem overwhelmed, whether in math or life. It looks so big. No one else has this problem. God is teaching me that the guesswork is taken out when I follow his path. Right now, I am chipping away at problems with my health. I ask, “How can I glorify God with healthy physical habits?” I am almost 100 lbs over a healthy weight. I’ve tried weight loss before and failed; my body has so many things breaking down that keep me from exercising, etc. When I focus on the problem, I forget that there are solid steps—steps others have taken before me— that I can take in faith no matter my circumstances. 

I don’t like steps and often don’t want to do them. They take too long, and there has to be a shorter route. But when I follow the race marked out for me, sin doesn’t trip me up, and when I follow Jesus, I have never been disappointed.

The steps of Christianity do not change. Here are some examples:

  • “And he said to him, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself'” (Matthew 22:37-39, ESV).
  • “Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoiced in hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us” (Romans 5:1-5 ESV).
  • “I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect” (Romans 12:1-2, ESV).

There are many more, but I utilize these crucial ones as my foundation. When I return to my starting point, my relationship with Jesus, I catch when I have steered off course more quickly. Scripture renews my spirit and keeps me focused on the finish line because God has already marked the race out for me. 

 

Turning Your Page

No matter where you are in your race of faith, you can stop, access resources, see the crowd of witnesses (those who have gone before us and testify that we are on the right path), and look for the markers of the course. There is prep for the faith, a team to develop, and scripture gives us well-laid-out steps. This is the starting line if you haven’t yet accepted Christ as your Lord and Savior. 

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.  For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.  Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God.”

Sin is a tangled mess, but salvation is not complicated. Believe in Jesus. That is it. Start with belief, and God will train us to run the race with perseverance, faithfulness, and love. Support the other runners around you and finish well. I am in the race with you. And if I finish ahead of you, know I’m cheering you on. I’ll be the one with the bouncing ponytail, shouting and clapping in celebration! Take the first step. Believe in the one who gave up his life for you. 

 

Lord, I want to run this race with perseverance. I long to finish well, but many obstacles are in my way. Strengthen me, show me your trustworthy ways so that I can finish this life well. Amen 

 

For Further Reading:

Patience Grows Love in the Petri Dish of Suffering

Sacred Scars by Dr. Michelle Bengtson

Suicide & Prevention Hotline

National Suicide Hotline

If you or a loved one are in immediate danger, call the National Suicide Lifeline at 988 or go to the website at https://988lifeline.org/