2 Samuel 7:4 But in the same night the word of the LORD came to Nathan, saying, 5“Go and say to My servant David, ‘Thus says the LORD, “Are you the one who should build Me a house to dwell in? 6“For I have not dwelt in a house since the day I brought up the sons of Israel from Egypt, even to this day; but I have been moving about in a tent, even in a tabernacle.â€¦
I have struggled with “catch a one-way-bus” syndrome for the past few weeks and today it reached fever pitch. I sat at my dinning room table, staring at housesÂ listings,Â feeling like I was going to implode if I didn’t open the release valve. So I began mowing our yard.
God brought to mind theÂ overwhelmingÂ longing I felt 14 years ago, to share my life with someoneÂ after being totally content with beingÂ single for 6 years was confusing. I felt stirred up. In those days, friends and family moved away, and I asked God to either make me content with Him alone again, or if this stirring was from Him, to provide a husband. He did both. I had such a joy in the journey and, because IÂ opened myself to new possibilities, I met Brian. As I mowed my rows today, I finallyÂ Â became quiet enough to listen.
Me:Lord I want a change. I wantÂ a one story house in the country.
God: You take yourself wherever you go.
Me: So that’s a no?
God: Contentment is in me, not a location. If you do not learn to have a joy in your work here, then expanding your tent pegs isn’t going create lasting peace.
Me: Yes, Lord. Teach me to love being present with you here in my home. Reveal the sinÂ in me that rebels against your will and direction.
The tension left my shoulders and I let the bus leave without me.