Turning the Page on Suicide Podcast–Transforming Impossible Circumstances

Welcome to Turning the Page on Suicide. Insomnia has made me feel close to losing my mind this week. Honestly, it is difficult to speak truth over negative and dark thoughts.  I know what God is capable of when I am at my weakest yet living without restful sleep is impossible. I am tempted to despair.

God transforms the impossibilities in our lives. Scripture testifies to miraculous change in people with ingrained sin patterns, physical struggles without a cure, and mental illness, though some didn’t even know Jesus. Sometimes God heals in an instant, other times, like for me, it is a slow change.

The writers of the gospels wrestled with despair throughout the New Testament. Lives were transformed but all who dared share the gospel endured great hardships or loss of life. Their minds, bodies, and spirits were taxed to breaking. The disciples lived and continued in their weakness, because they kept the same habits, no matter what they encountered. “Now we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this surpassingly great power is from God and not from us. We are pressed on all sides, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed… So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you” (2 Corinthians 4:7-9,12 BSB).

Here is what we need to do:

  • Acknowledge suffering.
  • Repeat what we know to be true of God and our circumstances.
  • Survey God’s mighty work in the life of Israel, the prophets, Jesus Christ, and our own.  
  • Observe that many are saved through suffering.
  • Praise God in all things.

My insomnia is worth the chance to connect with you. Do not give up. God loves to work with what we deem impossible. Live as a mighty example, despair will not win, no matter what life throws at us.

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Peace Peace: Resting in God’s Promise

” The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You” (Isaiah 26:3 BSB).

It is now 1:51 in the morning and I have given up on sleep. So I came downstairs to meditate on scripture and pray. This as my go-to habit when I can’t sleep. The time has been sweet, refreshing my spirit, and reveals so much about myself and God.

The Lord prompted me to share with you step by step, as it is happening, what my time looks like.


  • Bible
  • Writing Utensils (Highlighter, Pen)
  • Online Commentary
  • Journal
Meditating on Scripture


  • Read through the first time without notes
  • Highlighted verses that stood out to me
  • Wrote out thoughts or questions in margins (can be done in a journal as well)
  • Looked up parts I didn’t understand
  • Looked for context words (i.e. lots of battle terms)
  • Prayed for understanding throughout, for myself, and for you
  • prayed for rest

Perfect Peace=Perfect Trust
(What I learn about God and myself in each verse)

  • God’s Character/My Character
  • Our Salvation/Strong City
  • Open Gates/Faithful
  • Keeps in Peace/Steadfast Mind
  • Rock Eternal/Trust Lord Forever
  • Humbles Prideful/The Oppressed Win
  • Upright/Smooth Path
  • His Judgment Teaches Righteousness/Student
  • Worthy of Praise/Wait, Obey, Know Him
  • Majesty/ Experience Evil Because of God’s Grace for All Mankind
  • Authority/Protected From Enemies
  • Establishes Peace/Open to His Good Things
  • Lord and Ruler/ Honor His Name No Matter Who Rules Over Me
  • Destroys Oppressor/Temporary Suffering
  • Glorified Through the Righteous/Repent and Cry Out
  • Disciplines the Wicked/I Suffer If I Do Not Do What is Right or Bring Salvation to Others


  • What does “perfect peace” mean? vs 3
  • What is the significance of a upraised hand? vs 11

Lest you be intimidated by the fact that I am looking up the Hebrew translation of the verses, realize this, I love languages. I am a word girl. We lose some depth of meaning through our English translation, so I try to look at the original. This is a desire God placed in me as an aspect of my delight in scripture. Reading the original aids in my understanding. By no means do you have to do this, and I would actually caution, anyone beginning to read scripture for the first time to keep it simple.

At the core, my basic reading pattern looks like this:

  • Read
  • Question
  • Apply

Indeed, the Hebrew revealed something I didn’t see before. “Perfect peace” could literally be translated “peace peace”. By doubling up, the writer is implying this is complete, without a shadow of a doubt peace. It doesn’t come from man building security on high. It comes from God fortifying our lives, protecting us day and night, and trusting him to do what is right for us.

God has been chiseling away at the hard places in me where I lean on my own understanding and don’t trust him (i.e. my daughter’s health) and revealing over and over his trustworthiness.

Going back to my list again, what developed as I read is the following:

  • Read–God’s actions my response (looked for in each verse)
  • Question– What is the significance of God’s hand being raised? (I figure a kingly gesture of judgment, like a gavel)
  • Apply–God is trustworthy in my family’s health. Run to him for healing and direction. He will not let me down. Rest in his faithfulness.

Blessing and and peace peace dear brothers and sisters.

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