Revelation 7:17 For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd; ‘he will lead them to springs of living water.’ ‘And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.'”
The water bill almost undid me last night. I have had a really good week since Motherâ€™s Day and have been swimming confidently out to uncharted waters with Christ.
Brian excitedly stated, â€œI donâ€™t know how, but our water bill dropped this year.â€
It took me a moment to realize why . . . â€œWe donâ€™t have a teenager using the water.â€ I quietly responded. Suddenly I was deeply weary. The busy week had not drained me, the amazing time with teenagers at the ranch had not brought me to my spiritual knees, and several days of not sleeping had not disabled me. No, it was a water bill. I wanted to disappear in that moment, not feel the grief that poured into my soul. Iâ€™d give anything to doÂ Jonathan’s laundry or hear him singing from the shower as he got ready for school.
I realized that the best thing for me to do was to head on to bed. Nothing good was going to come from me sitting there dwelling on my heartache. I heard a woman wisely say, she set a consistent pattern of going to bed when her kids do, because she realized that anything past that time that her flesh was weakened.
Again I did not sleep well, but this morning I sought the Lordâ€™s face and reread Matthew 5:4. â€œBlessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.â€ He gives me comfort through scripture, laughter with a friend, my husband and kids, as well as the discipline of writing this blog. Just to name a few. Tapping these resources today I clearly see that in less than a year there is a transition happening. The days of deep anguish are becoming . . . well . . . moments. Why? Developing discipline (just about a curse word for some of us), is shutting the door on death, and opening the roof for unfathomable faith, hope, and love. The more I experience these gifts, the more I long for them to finish their work.
Oh, my sweet son, you are experiencing these three things with Jesus! May I be a witness of that indestructible abundant life, promised on this side of heaven. May I grasp ahold and be strengthened by the truth that nothing is impossible for God. Amen.
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