Not My Will But Yours Be Done: Learning to accept God’s Sovereignty
John 19:26When Jesus then saw His mother, and the disciple whom He loved standing nearby, He said to His mother, “Woman, behold, your son!” 27Then He said to the disciple, “Behold, your mother!” From that hour the disciple took her into his own household.
As I was going to sleep last night, a thought popped into my head. Mary lost a child to a brutal death. In factÂ she lost at least two! James, her biological son with Joseph it is believed was stoned to death for preaching the gospel. This is no mother’s plan! Mary had to be numb and collapsing as she saw Jesus, the son of God, being crucified on the cross. God did not tell her thatÂ this was the road to salvation. It is safe to say that she was not in agreement withÂ theÂ dangerous path Jesus was walking. In her wisdom, she wanted to keep him safe, just as she had always done. She remembered fleeing from Cesar when Jesus was a baby. She remember howÂ this precious life changed her very existence as he grew in her belly. She had done everything she could to sustain him, to keep him alive, to be a good steward of God’s amazing gift. Surely him hanging on the cross was not God’s will.Â Jesus did nothing as she expected.Â And yet,Â even from the cross Jesus was concerned for his mother and providing for her.
No matter how great the plan we make as a mother,Â God’s plan is better.Â He has the end goal end in mind, when I cannot even see the finish line. His love is for all of humanity. My love is for a few. His judgment is not clouded and mine is darkened by my own selfish desires. His path is consistent, he neither wavers nor stumbles. God’s plan for Jesus was perfect. God’s plan for Jonathan was perfect. Oh,Â how weighty those wordsÂ are for me! TheyÂ are bitter inÂ my soul. Please hear me, whileÂ God did not cause my son’s death, he didn’t stop it either–AND HE IS COMPLETELY ABLE TO! To accept God’s sovereignty in my son’s death isÂ one of the hardest hurdles in myÂ faith. Yet I have believed that he is sovereign in the good things in my life. Why not in death as well?
He has a purpose in allowing Jonathan to die, and as I learn toÂ open myself toÂ the possibilities in hisÂ purposes may the friction between my will and God’s will be removed. What is happening in your life right now that you find yourself saying, “Surely this is not the will of God.”Â Are you battling cancer, is a loved one ill, have youÂ lost your job, is your marriage in shambles. Can we pray as Jesus prayed?:
Our Father in heaven,
Reveal who you are.
Set the world right;
Do whatâ€™s bestâ€”
Â Â Â Â as above, so below.
Keep us alive with three square meals.
Keep us forgiven with you and forgiving others.
Keep us safe from ourselves and the Devil.
Youâ€™re in charge!
You can do anything you want!
Youâ€™re ablaze in beauty!
Â Â Â Â Yes. Yes. Yes. (Matthew 6:9-13, The Message)