Sowing in Tears = a Joyful Harvest
Psalm 126:6 He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bringing his sheaves with him.
I dreamed about Jonathan last night. We were so excited to see him, but I knew it was only temporary so I invited everyone to visit him, hug him and we loved and laughed deeply together. It felt so good to see him, healthy, happy and whole. And then I quietly said my good-bye and turned away releasing the memory of him to where I now know it belongs.
There is such a shift in my heartache. It well never leave me, but there is an acceptance that I’m different and becoming a better person not in spite of the anguish of loss, but as a result of. How many years do we spend running from the painful things in our lives? If you are like me,Â our past is littered with brokenness.Â It can be so easy to slip into a cycle of short-sightedness and forget that God sows seeds through generations. Sometimes we sow tears for many years, but oh the harvest we reap when we do not give up!
Joseph, from the Old Testament,Â sowed tears for just shy of 20 years, before he saw his dream fulfilled. And Israel would later sow tears for 400Â years before they were freed from slavery.Â The whole world had to wait for thousands of years before the promised Messiah would come and free us from the consequences of sin. Jesus sowed in tears. I am a part of his harvest.
Why doesÂ a good and loving God operate this way? Why does he allow pain and suffering? Why do we have to sow in tears? What if I told you WHAT YOU ARE EXPERIENCING RIGHT NOW HAS THE POWER FOR THE REDEMPTION OF MANY! Would you believe me? Would you keep sowing in the midst of your depression? There are many witnesses who have goneÂ before me to testify thatÂ there most painful timesÂ were when they drew the closest to Christ, grew in belief and action, andÂ began to anticipate a larger harvest. I have seen first hand God’s hand move in the lives plagued by deepest despair (cancer, divorce, death of a husband or child, natural disaster). In Psalm 126, the psalmist is celebrating the restoration of Israel’s fortunes and he shares three crucial elements that are true in the deepest, darkest moments we go through. 1.We will be filled with joy and laughter again. 2. The Lord is aware of our planting. 3. We will reap and the nations will take notice of the difference in us
This is at the core of grieving with hope!
Beautifully written. Thanks so much for sharing. My family has also been through some traumatic times. I don’t know how he’s going to do it, but I’m trusting God that he has a plan to work all things out for our good, and one day he’ll wipe away every tear. God bless you.
My heart goes out to you Audrey. May you reap a great harvest for every tear you sow.