Matthew 4:Matthew 4:11
Then the devil left Him, and angels came and ministered to Him.
Luke 22â€¦42â€œFather, if You are willing, take this cup from Me. Yet not My will, but Yours be done.â€ 43Then an angel from heaven appeared to Him and strengthened Him. 44And in His anguish, He prayed more earnestly, and His sweat became like drops of blood falling to the ground.â€¦
I am finding, even whenÂ I’m notÂ consciously aware of the dates, my soul is. The past two days my heartache has swelled and I didn’t register, just like last year, that the 7th seems to be my absolute hardest day of the year. You would think that the 1st would be it, but it is the day I buried Jonathan. Maybe it is because it the very last physical act or contact I have with his body on this earth. In any case I have dragged myself through the past two days.
I know the depth of this heart ache will end soon. There are simply days whenÂ we hurt to ourÂ core, whether in depression or grief. Days when the intensity of what we feel is almost more than our physical bodies can handle. Jesus came to a place where the burden he bore was so great that angels ministered to him, just so he wouldn’t die early. It is telling that the two times Jesus was ministered to are two times the enemy came to sift him; Satan attached when Jesus was at his weakest.
So Lord, as I cry out to you today. “This is more than I can bear!” I look for your comfort and provision to minister to me. MayÂ your will in my lifeÂ be a testimony to the strength you offer to all of your adopted children.