I attempted to stuff my depression into the racks of the church coatroom before
straightening my face into a well pressed smile.
You, who did not hide your sorrow from your Father,
had the usher bring my cloak of despair back to me.
Shoulders drooped as I slipped into the putrid pew of religious repetition
believing faith wasn’t ready to share my coarse reality. But scripture shook me
awake. The world needs my tears, struggle, and depression.
Believers sing the blues too.
I confess, I struggle to accept Your ways.
Bones, broken with grief, scream to give in.
But, You give sanctuary to my lament.
Questions are met with open goodness.
I am reminded, God put on the cloak of humanity
to understand me.
And, when I wear depression into the sanctuary,
It is an open invitation for others to be real with You.