Category: Loss

Manger Alter

Ramen Noodles were a mothers desperate attempt at feeding her child who could not keep food down. It was a favorite food. I did not understand how much my heart was entangled in this simple pleasure until my husband asked if he could donate it…

Too much

I’m angry today. Angry that you aren’t here laughing with me. Lord, I cry out to you! Fill my heart with your love. I need you, the heartache is too much!

45 MINUTES OF MISSING YOU

Blue Men and Women conducted a BOLD LETTER search for the little sheep hiding amid the pride of lions while the mother feared she had been devoured Layers of loss struggled to hope Squawks of Marco Polo volleyed Until the hunters exhausted of the game Silence ticked by until…

Hope Planted in the Soil of Grief

Children’s laughter echoes Spring into the window of my wintered heart. Never quite thawed, never shaking myself of the death that keeps my hands cold. I cannot bring to life that which I long for I resurrect dreams until they are nightmares and hold…

Jarritos Memories

A bottle of memories Sparkling with your laughter, sipped slowly by my broken heart. Silly sombrero on your head, Inviting life with your dimpled smile as cheeks puff to blow out candles. I walk by the Mexican soda at the grocery store and you make my…

I Don’t Need Fifty Shades Of Grey: Just Give Me One-Of-A-Kind Black And White Love

I have had enough shades of grey in my life, it has left me lost, confused, afraid, and depressed. Seems to me that our world keeps trying to sell us cheap grey imitations of love when what we crave is black and white love! I have…

Grieving with Hope: Painting my son’s room

Turn the Page: Today is a hard day to turn. I don’t feel particularly sad, just unsure. Lord reveal your purpose for today. Amen This is one more large day without Jonathan. We are painting Daniel’s room today and maybe that is harder than…