Category: Loss

Manger Alter

Ramen Noodles were a mothers desperate attempt at feeding her child who could not keep food down. It was a favorite food. I did not understand how much my heart was entangled in this simple pleasure until my husband asked if he could donate it…

Too much

I’m angry today. Angry that you aren’t here laughing with me. Lord, I cry out to you! Fill my heart with your love. I need you, the heartache is too much!

45 MINUTES OF MISSING YOU

Blue Men and Women conducted a BOLD LETTER search for the little sheep hiding amid the pride of lions while the mother feared she had been devoured Layers of loss struggled to hope Squawks of Marco Polo volleyed Until the hunters exhausted of the game Silence ticked by until…

Hope Planted in the Soil of Grief

Children’s laughter echoes Spring into the window of my wintered heart. Never quite thawed, never shaking myself of the death that keeps my hands cold. I cannot bring to life that which I long for I resurrect dreams until they are nightmares and hold…

Jarritos Memories

A bottle of memories Sparkling with your laughter, sipped slowly by my broken heart. Silly sombrero on your head, Inviting life with your dimpled smile as cheeks puff to blow out candles. I walk by the Mexican soda at the grocery store and you make my…

I Don’t Need Fifty Shades Of Grey: Just Give Me One-Of-A-Kind Black And White Love

I have had enough shades of grey in my life, it has left me lost, confused, afraid, and depressed. Seems to me that our world keeps trying to sell us cheap grey imitations of love when what we crave is black and white love! I have…

Grieving with Hope: Painting my son’s room

Turn the Page: Today is a hard day to turn. I don’t feel particularly sad, just unsure. Lord reveal your purpose for today. Amen This is one more large day without Jonathan. We are painting Daniel’s room today and maybe that is harder than…

Heaven: Keeping my eyes fixed on the finish line

2 Corinthians 5:1 For we know that if the tent that is our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens Today I have to attend the funeral of my great aunt….

Remembering My Son: Because he lived I am changed

John 16:20-24 Truly, truly, I say to you, you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice. You will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will turn into joy. 21When a woman is giving birth, she has sorrow because her hour has come, but…

Guided by the Comforter: Learning to listen to God’s voice

Acts 4:31And when they had prayed, the place where they had gathered together was shaken, and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak the word of God with boldness. Daniel wanted Jonathan to be a part of Halloween. So…