Turning the Page on Suicide Podcast—Taking Deeper Breaths

Turning the Page on Suicide-Taking Deeper Breaths https://www.chirpapp.com/audiopost/egx5zrnKvM

Welcome to Turning the Page on Suicide. I apologize for the long absence. This evening I received a gentle reminder to post, even if I manage just a word or two.

In the first days of grieving my son’s suicide I posted every day, without fail. It may have been a few sentences, a poem or a thought, but there was something about the daily discipline of posting while experiencing despair. It was like taking a clean breath in the middle of thick stale air.

Tonight, it took swim lessons to remind me to breathe again. I am learning the different strokes in swimming because I am tired of panicking. As someone who almost drowned as a ten-year-old, I value air, but I have never learned how to relax when desperate. My instructor worked with me on not letting a bad breath ruin the next one.  Recovery takes practice, consistency and retraining muscles to value the oxygen given. Relaxing into each moment stretches out and strengthens the power in each breath. I stop fighting and start trusting the water.

Sorrow sneaks up on us and chokes our air with business, troubles, and even well-intentioned service. Maintain your breath. I know no other way but to spend time with Jesus, study his word, spend time in creation, connect with others and apply what I am learning. Writing and now swimming teaches me to breathe deeply, even if all I get in a day are a few deep cleansing breaths.

Challenge: What helps you to breathe? Drawing, hiking, sewing, reading. Pick an activity or explore something new and focus on taking deeper breaths of the experience. What do your senses tell you in the moment? Is it easier to connect with others when you breathe life more slowly and intentionally?

Your story is worth writing! I breathe, turn the page and find out what happens next.

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Turning the Page on Suicide Podcast–Mercy and Justice are Not Separate

https://www.chirpapp.com/audiopost/Z1oaYpQo0A

(Must get the CHIRP app to listen to all of the podcast, but here is the transcript.)

Welcome to Turning the Page on Suicide, I am your host, Karisa Moore. Tangled up in my story is injustice. I have been seriously wronged and those who did harm are going on with their lives with no apparent consequences.

God is peeling back the many layers of bitterness I feel to reveal my false beliefs about His true character. He is both just and merciful. I want one or the other, but not both at the same time. God is not quick to condemn any of us because it is his will that none should perish. His mercy means that his justice will not come when I demand it. I will experience injustice because God gives all of us every opportunity to repent. I suffer because of His mercy. If I want him to judge others who have hurt me, I also am asking for Him to judge me. If I want mercy, he is also merciful to my oppressors.

Nothing hinders God. Our experiences, both good and bad can change the course of mankind in the hands of an omniscient (all knowing) God. Example after example of the oppressed turning the tide on evil is recorded in scripture. Look around you. Do you see men and women doing great things out of great suffering? Your life matters to God and he is deeply aware when you have been wronged.

Until our perspective can take in all the needs of mankind, we will never judge rightly. We will lean to harshly towards condemnation or to loosely towards mercy. In repentance, trust and obedience we become better judges of character, our own and others. We show mercy because God has been merciful to us.

Follow me at http://www.turningthepageonsuicide.org or email me with your story at turningthepageonsuicide@gmail.com. Your story, even the chapters of injustice, are worth writing.

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